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[26 Oct 2005|10:03pm]
a girl died in 1933 by a homicide murderer. He buried her in the ground while she was still alive. The murderer chanted, "Toma sota balcu" as he buried her. Now that you have read the chant, you will meet this little girl. In the middle of the night she will be on your ceiling. She will suffocate you like she was suffocated. If you post this, she will not bother you. Your kindness will be rewarded. And... When you start reading this don't stop or else something bad will happen... My name is Teddy... I am 7 yrs. with blonde hair and scary eyes. I have no nose or ears? I am deaf. If u don't post this in the next 5 mins, I will appear tonight by your bed with a knife, and kill you. This is no joke something good will happen to you tonight. This is no joke someone will call you or you will talk to someone online and say I love you, do not break it or a barrage of bad things will happen to you!!!

May as well...Dont feel like getting killed tonight.

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[15 Oct 2005|10:27pm]

I about cried at the football game.

I realized something that I dont even know if Ill tell people, I realized something that I wish I never realized...Something that I hate myself for.

I really hate myself.

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[10 Oct 2005|09:45pm]
I want my life back.
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[05 Oct 2005|09:16pm]

I'm thinking to much...Maybe too much.

I hate my life, and I hate people.  Fuck you to anyone who says Im stupid.  You are a hypocrite and You arent me, you dont know whats going on in my life.  So deal with your own problems.  Dont worry about mine or how stupid they may be.

To the one girl I Love now and will always love for as long as I live, To my true friends who have always been there, To my family who Ive treated so badly: 

                   Just stop...Think about what we all had once before...Think about how thats all gone.

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[03 Oct 2005|09:53pm]
I still love you.
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[29 Sep 2005|06:49pm]




AND...****** But I wont tell you who that is...HA!


Oh yeah, and FUCK *YOU!

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[25 Sep 2005|09:40pm]

"With every breath I wish your body would be broken again."

                                                                                         You can't win.


                 Just stop trying.

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[17 Sep 2005|05:22pm]
[ mood | Like nothing Ive felt before ]

I found this...and I fell madly in love.

ive lost it all because i bled for you...
i could go on.
you were full of open wounds.
im tired, empty, lonly.
cold dead and gone.
what the hell for?
I hope you're happy,
are you?
are you happy that you ripped me apart?
i presented myself with everything i am,
i'd hoped it was worth it...
to me, is a waste,
i presented myself with everything i am,
but it wasn't enough,
it never was.
I never was...
i can't pick up the pieces this time...
so i'll watch you walk away.
there goes everything i ever hoped for,
everything i ever dreamed of...
Love is NOT overrated...
the WORD is...
if you said the feeling was...
it wasn't love
if you can explain the feeling... it isn't love...

You looked me in the eyes and told me i'd
always have you.


... or...

...Where the fuck am i...?

Am i being played with?
victim of this... game?

Becoming what i hate?

...becoming what i said i'd NEVER be...

....Am i so scared im pushing you away..?
am i really watching you walk away?
...or am i running away and watching you disappear....?

-Sean Borgman

^^^This kid is absolutley amazing...

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[11 Sep 2005|10:08pm]

You know what?

Fuck you.  Fuck you up your stupid ass.

Im fucking pissed as hell, for no absolute reason.  This has been happening a lot lately.  I am having some hardcore mood swings.  I am most of the time really, really pissed off to the point where I want to beat the living shit out of someone more than I am happy now.  Actually, Im not happy at all, I dont get happy anymore.  I mean I can have a good time and shit, but I dont get happy...at all.

I have...Like more than ever, seriously been thinking of saying screw it, and just start cutting myself again.  Than maybe people wouldnt care about me anymore.  Then again, I know I would lose a lot of friends, I love my friends and dont want to lose anyone else.

God dammit, I am sorry, but I am going to admit it.  I hate myself, I hate my life and every last thing about it.  I hate the feeling of being alive.  I hate the fact that we live...Go through some tough ass shit eating experiences...and for what?  To die.  It wont matter...We wont matter anymore when we die, thats why Im not worried about the fact that tomorrow someone might shoot me in the head and I will die.  I would not care if my heart collapsed right now.  I would be dead, I couldnt care. Im not saying I want to kill myself or I want to die or anything...I just hate it.

So really what Im trying to say is...Im sick and fucking tired.  Of everything...Of every last thing in my life.  I hate it, I hate the way society is turning out and I hate the way a lot of people are turning out, and I especially hate the way I am turning out.

Im a fucking ass hole and I deserve to have the fucking crap beat out of me.  Any takers?

Andrew Gordon Munn

-*Im still Hardcore*-

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[07 Sep 2005|08:20pm]

I need to scream.  Really, really badly.  I, for the first time in my life, actually can not wait til next band practice so I can scream until my lungs fuckin collapse.  I might actually pass out, for all the screaming Im needing to be doing.

I need to talk to someone.  Hardcore, Very Hardcore, Things have really been getting to me.  And I dont want to end up doing something stupid.  Like I have done before many, many times.

~-*Im Hardcore*-~


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[05 Sep 2005|04:47pm]

What the fuck is wrong with me?

I've stopped myself once again...


And it doesnt even matter.

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[04 Sep 2005|12:18am]

I have a few things to say.

First off, I am not a fucking retard as many of you think I am.  Just because I act stupid and get bad grades, Does not mean that I am a bad person, and it certainly doesnt mean that Im retarded.  Stop treating me like Im retarded.

I am not a punk.  Dont label me.

I am not a druggie.  Once again...Dont label me.

I am becoming the person I hate the most. 

I hate the way society is turning out.

I wish I could crash  my moms wedding.

I had a mad craving to get high today.  I didnt.

Love really is bullshit.  I dont think I will be able to tell anyone else I love them.  Love is True and Forever.  I have yet to hear of a relationship without Lies and that has lasted Forever.  If you tell someone you love them...You better fucking mean it.  I know I just contradicted myself saying that love is bullshit and than saying that you should mean it, but...People have their own way of thinking, So if you really "Believe in a thing called love...Just listen to the rythm of my heart.  We'll be rockin til the sun goes down"...Yeah sorry.  Remember that song?  But anyway, if you believe in Love, and you tell someone that you love them...Again...You better fucking mean it.

Thank you.
Sweetdreams and Sleepwell

I am becoming a totally different person.

-Andrew Gordon Munn

"She looked me in the eyes and told me she truely loved me"  God damn.

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[01 Sep 2005|09:57pm]

She looked me in the eyes and said "I truely love you."

Do you have any idea how much that hurts?

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[25 Aug 2005|10:05pm]
If you've seen over 70 of these movies, you're a movie whore...
(1)Napoleon Dynamite
(3)White Noise
()White Oleander
(4)Anger Management
(5)50 First Dates
(6)Jason X
(9)Scream 2
(10)Scream 3
(11)Scary Movie
(12)Scary Movie 2
(13)Scary Movie 3
(14)American Pie
(15)American Pie 2
(16)American Wedding
(17)Harry Potter
(18)Harry Potter 2
(19)Harry Potter 3
(20)Tomb Raider
(21)Resident Evil
(22)Resident Evil 2
(23)The Wedding Singer
()Little Black Book
()The Itallian Job
(24)The Village
(25)Donnie Darko
(26)Lilo & Stitch
(27)Finding Nemo
(28)Finding Neverland
(29)13 Ghosts
(31)The Grinch
(32)Texas Chainsaw Massacre
()White Chicks
(33)Butterfly Effect
()Thirteen going on 30
()Universal Soldier
()Lemony Snickets A Series Of Unfortunate Events
()Bridget Jones Diary
()Bridget Jones: The Edge Of Reason
()Along Came A Spider
()Deep impact
(35)Never Been Kissed
(36)Meet The Parents
(37)Meet The Fockers
(38)Eight Crazy Nights
()A Cinderella Story
()The Terminal
()The Lizzie McGuire Movie
()Passport to Paris
(39)Dumb & Dumber
(40)Dumb & Dumberer
(41)Final Destination
(42)Final Destination 2
(43)Amityville Horror the original
(45)The Ring
(46)The Ring 2
(47)Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle
()Practical Magic
(48)Idle Hands
(49)Ghost Ship
(51)Secret Window
(52)I Am Sam
()The Whole Nine Yards
()The Whole Ten Yards
(53)The Day After Tomorrow
(54)Child's Play
()Bride of Chucky
(55)Ten Things I Hate About You
(56)Just Married
(58)A Nightmare on Elm Street
(59)Sixteen Candles
(60)Bad Boys 2
(61)Joy Ride
(62)Seven (SE7EN)
(63)Oceans Eleven
(64)Oceans Twelve
()Sin City
()Lone Star
(66)Predator I
(67)Predator II
()Alien V.S. Predator
(68)Independence Day
()A Bronx Tale
(70)Darkness Falls
(72)Children of the Corn
(73)My Boss' Daughter
()Maid in Manhattan
()Best bet
()How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(74)She's All That
()Calendar Girls
()Being John Malcovitch
()Finding Julia
()Maria Full of Grace
(74)Mars Attacks
(75)Without A Paddle
()Event Horizon
(76)Ever after
(77)Forrest Gump
(78)Big Trouble in Little China
(80)X-men 2
(81)Jeepers Creepers
(82)Jeepers Creepers 2
()Catch Me If You Can
(83)The Others
()Freaky Friday
(83)Reign of Fire
(84)Cruel Intentions
()Cruel Intentions 2
()Cruel Intentions 3
(85)The Hot Chick
(87)Old School
()The Notebook
(89)Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(90)Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(91)Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
()A Walk to Remember
()Eternal Sunshine Of a Spotless Mind.
()Back Door Sluts 9
(94)The Fifth Element
(95)star Wars Episode I
(96)Star wars episode II
(97)Star Wars Episode III
(98)Star Wars Episode IV
(99)Star wars episode V
(100)Star wars episode VI
(101)Troop Beverly Hills
()Swimming with Sharks
()People under the stairs
()Blue Velvet
(102)Sound of music
(103)Parent Trap
(104)The Burbs
()SLC Punk
()Meet Joe Black
()Wild girls
()Clockwork Orange
(105)The Order
()Mean Girls
(109)Shrek 2
(110)The Incredibles
(112)The Fast & The Furious
(113)2 Fast 2 Furious
()Sky Captain & The World of Tomorrow
(114)The Sixth Sense
(115)Artificial Intelligence
()Love actually
(116)Ella Enchanted
(117)Princess Diaries 1
(118)Princess Diaries 2
()The Graduate
()Million Dollar Baby
()Party Monster
()Detroit Rock City
(120)The Goonies
()Y Tu Mama Tambien
(121)Pulp Fiction
(122)Wet Hot American Summer
()Empire Records
()Notting Hill
(123)Pretty Woman
(124)Pirates of the Carribean
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Im sorry [25 Aug 2005|12:31am]

I say it enough..."I'm sorry".  So I just thought I would make a list of things I am sorry for.

I am sorry for...

  • For every tear Ive cried...Im sorry
  • For ever hurting anyone
  • Not trying hard enough
  • Trying to hard
  • For not ever really giving it my all
  • Not being there for you when I promised you I would be
  • For calling God a fucking bastard ass hole
  • Not being able to make you smile
  • Not being able to make you laff
  • Not being able to cheer you up
  • For not moving on
  • Not believing in myself
  • Not doing my homework
  • Saying I love you
  • Not learning from my mistakes
  • Not being a better singer
  • Crying every single night
  • Always being depressed and suicidal
  • Coming to you for help
  • Needing you
  • Cutting myself
  • Keeping memories of you
  • Gauging my ears when I said I wouldnt
  • Drinking pop after 7pm when you told me not to
  • For always pissing someone off, or annoying them
  • For loving to see you smile
  • For loving to hold you in my arms, loving to kiss you, loving to look deep into your eyes
  • Im sorry for loving to Love you
  • When I used to smoke pot
  • Listening to some bands you may not like
  • Always thinking about the bad things in life
  • Never having a goal
  • Not trying harder in school
  • Bitching so much
  • Trying to comfort you
  • Not working harder in the band
  • That one thing I said that may have made you sad/mad/annoyed
  • For not dotting my I's and not crossing my T's
  • Praying that I wont wake up
  • Attempting suicide time after time
  • Not being able to beat the Machina on Final Fantasy 10
  • Worrying to much
  • Being so damn paranoid
  • Losing you
  • Never really seeing a sunset
  • For saying Im sorry so fucking much
  • Not showing who I really am
  • Never really being myself
  • Flipping my Mom off
  • Telling you to stop spraying me with the hose and ruining your fun
  • Telling my Dad to fuck off and go to hell
  • Not being able to back out with the truck
  • Not having my liscence yet
  • Not treating you like the absolutly perfect princess that you are
  • Not holding you longer, or kissing you more passionately
  • For being annoying
  • The fact that everything I have ever said and done...I mean with everything I have in my heart and with all of my soul.
  • For making promises
  • And then breaking them

I love ****you****

You know it.

I am most sorry for...

  • Caring

I wont lose you.

-Andrew Gordon Munn-

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[24 Aug 2005|01:41am]


Andy Milonakis is 29 years old.

I say again...Holy...Frikkin...Crap.

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[22 Aug 2005|09:48pm]

Today was fun.

So was last night.

Last Night - I stayed the night at Jareds. It was tonz o'fun. Oh yeah.  So Jared and Alex and Doofer picked me up at about 630 and we went to Pinheads and played some pool.  Then we played some games and such and we left and of course Jared asked the age old question "Where are we going now?"  And he is the driver...He should know.  Gawsh.  So we went to Errika Schmit (sp??) house and we almost broke her hammok thing.  So then we left and brought Doofer home with Alex in the trunk the whole way.  Then we called Jeska kuz Jared was jonesin to see her so I called her and we met her, Jakki, and Risa at Wesco.  They left Risa so we were gonna take her but then they showed up and took her with them.  So then when they left, Jared went into Wesco and we took his car without him knowing down the road and he was running up to the car all mad and stuff when we got back.  It was funny.  Haha.  So then we called a ton of people and then went back to Jareds house and played Halo and stuff.  Then we all talked in his room and I fell asleep playing Pokemon and Jared and I were in the same bed (dont get any ideas).  I woke up with him on top of me so that was a wee bit ...Odd.  Yes...Very odd. 

Today - Made plans with Jade to hang out today so then at 1130 I woke Jared up and we went to my house so I could grab a shower and charge my fone a bit and then we came back to his house and he took a shower and then we went to Alex's house and HE took a shower, then we went to go get Jade Ann and so we then went to the beach.  Alex showed us his "Secret Spot".  Yeah it wasnt very secret, it was just on duck lake.  So then we swam and stuff, it was super fun.  I liked it.  Then we went back to Alexs house and hit golfballs and then I found my clothes for Homecomming kuz I have to look spiffy for my Date.  Hehe.  Because of course she is going to look absolutly AMAZING so yeah I have to look okay.  Hehe.  Jade said I look Sexy in Preppy shirts.  Woo.  So then we took Jade home at about 5 and Jared, Alex and I went and got Little Ceasers and then came to my house.  Zach was there.  Then we all hung out and watched TV and Alex and I almost got into a fist fight.  Yup.  So they all left, I took a shower, and got online.  Woo

_andrew gordon munn_

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I would just like to say... [20 Aug 2005|07:59pm]

If I had to choose between seeing a once in a life time phenomenon or stare into her eyes, which Ive seen a million times anyway...I would choose to look into her eyes.

If I had the chance to hold a all the money in the world or hold her...Id have her in my arms.

To choose between playing with my band in front of a million fans or hear her voice on the fone for 5 minutes...Her voice is the most pure.

I would never change a thing Ive done...But I will be better.

No one will ever compare to her, not ever.

I cant stand to think that someday...Nevermind...

Im not sure if anything I say means anything, or is worth anything to you, but it means everything to me and its all worth the world, YOU are worth the world. 

I love *you*.  You know I do, and you know I will for as long as I will possibly live.  You, as I have said before are my ONE and ONLY.  No one will ever replace you.  No one could even come close to replaceing you. 

 I dont care if I keep repeating myself, I mean every last word I say.

"Lets turn our lives into reality"
"Dont cry tonight my love, For I will be there"

-Andrew Gordon Munn-

P.S. Dont you DARE even start to think that no one cares, and that you arent worth anything.  Because in reality, There IS someone out there who you mean the entire fucking world to.  Dont ever let yourself believe any different.  I did...I didnt get anywhere either. 

Im sorry.

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I like this... [19 Aug 2005|12:04am]
Girl: hey baby i want to show you....
Boy: ( cutting her off ) ugh i'm so mad!
Girl: why? whats wrong ?
Boy: ugh everything
Girl: explain baby
Boy: just lost a championship game,
parents flipped out on me for no reason,
and im catching a cold
Girl: well hey there will always be other games,
you know ill take care of you when your sick,
what your parents flip about ?
Boy: they are making me pay them for a car repair
Girl: is it alot of money?
Boy: no it just sucks
Boy: but hey i dont feel well im going to go lay down
Boy: bye
Girl: wait i want to give you some...
Boy: cant it wait til tommorow ?
Girl: yeah sure
Girl: bye
Boy: bye

2 hours later a friend of hers asks her to go for a drive ...she goes.....

her friend swerved to avoid a truck....hitting a tree instead

her friend was killed instantly....shes in critical condition

This is the conversation between her sister and her boyfriend

Sister: omg ( crying )
Boy: what? whats wrong ?
Sister: my sister...your gf was involved in a major car wreck
Boy: is she ok ?!?!?!?
Sister: shes in critical condition
Boy: i'll be there in 10 minutes

He shows up to the hospital room ...standing outside the door
going over the last conversation in his mind over and over as he
heard the machines beep and beep and breathing tubes pump

Boy: she wanted to give me something or tell me something
Girls mom: yeah this...

it was an envelope smelling like she did sealed with a kiss in lipstick

he opened it.....

it said ..... your everything to me....i love you with everything i am
and everything i have...i want to spend the rest of my life with you

sealed in it was a ripped movie ticket from the first movie they went to

and the first picture they took together

he kissed the picture as a tear fell from his face onto the picture

it looked as if in the picture she was crying

then the machines flatlined....3 minutes later she was pronounced dead

If you have any heart...any soul...or want to be happy you will repost this.
if you care for someone ...do not let something like this ever happen

Post this in the next 200 seconds and you WILL have THE best

day of your life THIS SATURDAY. You're number one *love* Will

either kiss you, ask you out, or call you or better. If

you break this chain you will have a lousy day on Saturday
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[18 Aug 2005|12:28am]
  1. I hate Mountain Dew
  2. I am extremely sensitive
  3. I hate being alone
  4. If Cancer were a person, I would kill it, bring it back to life and kill it again...Just because it took my grandpa
  5. I hate Christmas
  6. The world is going to hell
  7. I am madly in love
  8. "I am Hollywood"
  9. Valentines Day is the most important holiday to me
  10. Sometimes I wish the things that happened in horror movies, would happen in real life
  11. Pepsi sucks
  12. I believe in God
  13. I suck at RPG video games
  14. There are few things that I put real effort into
  15. I hate my voice, but I love to sing
  16. I wish I were smarter
  17. I hate getting into fights
  18. Love, to me...Is everything
  19. I will do anything I can to make someone happy
  20. Most of the time, I feel like Im completely worthless
  21. I am a bad son
  22. I am a bad friend
  23. I am a bad boyfriend
  24. I am a bad person
  25. I hate the way I think
  26. I am probably not really a bad "anything"
  27. I believe in Santa, Easter Bunny, Leprachauns, Tooth-Fairy and all sorts of Magic
  28. I talk to much
  29. I take everything to extremes
  30. I worry to much
  31. I dramatize everything
  32. I wish people knew who I was
  33. To kiss *you*...Is the world
  34. I want to live in a big city
  35. Its hard for me to hug other people
  36. Socks are overrated
  37. A lot of the time, I wish I were someone else
  38. I dont want to hurt anyone anymore
  39. Ive been hurt enough
  40. Im an insomniac
  41. I dont get hungry anymore
  42. I want to know "Why?"
  43. Sometimes I dont think anything is real
  44. How the hell is there such a thing as "Life"?
  45. I always wonder, "Why do I bother?"
  46. Does it really matter?
  47. Pepsi still sucks
  48. This is who I am
  49. I try...So hard.
  50. I love *you* then, now, and I promise with all of my heart, soul, and body that I will until the day that I die, and if my spirit lives on than I will love *you* forever.  I wont kiss anyone else, I will not hold anyone else like I hold *you* and I wont look for someone else.  Even if none of this matters, I mean it, with everything I have...I mean it.  And I will NEVER break this promise.
  51. IM SORRY

Just thought I would make another one of these...I got bored, and I think to much.  So here you are, again, Im sorry if any of this pisses anyone off.  : /

`~*-Andrew Gordon Munn-*~`

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